Simply 6 Minutes – Quelle Horreur

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Simply 6 Minutes – 22Sept2020

Nausea rises!

It does not compute that I am back in a school gym.

All those years of forced comradery. Forced athleticism.

I was no kind of gym junkie. Jock. Cheerleader.

Get me out of here, was top of my playlist.

The smell as you enter so reluctantly, brings it all back.

Gym sweat, gym gear, peer crushing, humiliation, bullying.

Not for me memories of past triumphs. Game night. Winners!

For me it is the little guy, the loser, the nerd.

Now as a parent, I find myself here with forced smile and bonhomie.

Supporting a child who also does not fit. Who does not want to be here.

I feel huge guilt and pressure. As a parent, I need to encourage team spirit. Love of the game.

As a person, I hate it all. I need to take my son’s hand and walk away. From the expectation.

What’s wrong with loving your own company, reading, gaming, talking long walks in the country.

In the name of ‘team’ we ask for ‘sheep’ ‘same’ ‘blend’ ‘belong’ – internally, I cry ‘ONE’ ‘ME’ ‘ALONE’.

How much of this do I reflect back onto my child. How much of it is his own identity?

I don’t  know, but I don’t think I assume and turn that pressure onto him.

I think he’s his own person – and I encourage that.

Then I get the summons. Game night. Assembly. Presentation night.

And numbly we enter, dragging our feet, heads down, breath held.

And into the dark past we trudge.

https://christinebialczak.com/2020/07/14/simply-6-minutes-writing-challenge

  1. Set up a timer or sit near a clock so you can keep track of the six minutes you will be writing.
  2. You can either use one of the prompts (photo or written) or you can free-write.
  3. Get ready and write for 6 minutes, that is it! Can you write a complete story? Can you think of a new Sonnet? Can you write 400 words? 400? 500? There are no restrictions on what kind of writing you do, but you should try to be actively writing for six minutes.
  4. After you are done writing, include your word count and then post back to this page #Simply6Minutes or include your link in the comments section. Pingbacks are enabled.

4 thoughts on “Simply 6 Minutes – Quelle Horreur

  1. I identify even though my sons are now grandfathers. They wanted to do whatever others were doing. Fortunately their dad was coach for a private college. They were good at soccer so soccer it was. There are so many wonderful things to do though/ I would not like being told to fit the mold. That’s not the Lord’s making for us. He has given many and various talents.

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  2. That is ironically how I feel as well, except I don’t think I have ever put it in writing. My son wasn’t into sports but he tried them all. He wasn’t that competitive kind of kid. I wish he had known all along that that was okay. Maybe he did.

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